Vulnerability in the classroom!!!??? Weakness more like! As a teacher?! Don't be daft! You'll get trampled on! Students are cruel, and you'll be laughed at! Have some leadership!!! Take control! - My argument (in a lesson) to the suggestion that educators should be vulnerable!
But then....
I took my first class! :) :) :) (At time of writing I have taken 3 - woop!) My brief - to talk to post-compulsory students about my own experience as a student, to explain about the third year in a different campus, and to inspire students.
And at the end of it, I am so pleased, and happy, and inspired myself. How does that work? Where you go into a classroom setting in order to share your own experience and inspire others, and you come out with your own dreams re-ignited?
I love stirring up the possibilities within people. Walking into a room full of different students, you can feel the potential in the room and see the thirst for knowledge even in the way they look at you expectantly. I found my own nerves start to leave when I realised I didn't have to be some authoritative figure, pouring in new knowledge, but that by sharing my own story, I was calling them to be who they were born to be. I found that because I have struggled and come through smiling, that I could honestly explain the pain and struggle, and then end with a positive outcome. I believe I even said the words 'If I can do it, then you can'. :)
There's nothing quite like encouraging someone, building up their world, maybe even making them feel better, or at least motivated or focused on a goal. Giving a boost to someone's confidence, or self-worth, or allowing them to dream bigger and aim higher is such a privilege. I hope God always grants me the grace to use my passion to share 'life' with others.
Life, and the ability to do what we were born to do is within each one of us. Allowing someone to discover that they have this, is totally beautiful. Life is so beautiful, so precious, and often so fragile. We have this moment, this time to do all we can, to reach our own potential, to walk into our destiny with purpose; head held high.
And if that is all too much - think about where you've come from? All that's happened in your life to get you to this point. You're here! You made it so far. Each one of us, unique, beautiful, fearfully & wonderfully made, free to choose, free to believe what we like, free to make our own decisions. It is not always easy & frequently challenging. But it's a beautiful life. Full of twists, turns, colours, air, light, dark, cake and helium balloons! :) I am so grateful.
It's so easy as a student (and a tutor) to get disgruntled, and disheartened. Life is lovely, but we live it within the constraints of so many things: Deadlines, school runs, curriculum, sickness, relationships, diets, family events, shopping, exercise, yoga, cooking tea, blogging, pregnancy, football, TV, studying, reading, playing, but somehow we fit it all on. Our ability to cope is variable, and when you think that a group of people who are doing life, then all meet together, waiting for another person to 'teach' them (who also is doing life), it is a natural opportunity for holistic education, and a sharing of experience, knowledge, ideas and of life. There is a sense of vulnerability about opening yourself up to learn, teach, share knowledge, feelings, frustrations and joys. But it is a vulnerability which, I believe, is needed, if the relationship between student and educator is to develop into a mutually beneficial tool. This tool, empowers, extends learning and ignites passion.
Of course, feel free to ask me how I feel again after years of teaching..... but until then, My mind has been changed.